So It's officially September... The month I happen to hate the most.. Well atleast for the last almost 3 years.. On September 9th it will be 3 years since the last time I saw my adopted dad Ron, & on the 13th it will be the 3 year Ann. of the night he took his own life... SO not my fave month ever.
But I seem to be handling it better than I did last year. I don't know if it is cause I am actually happy besides dealing with the grief of missing Ron. But it doesn't feel so raw & painful.. But still sucks balls!
I'm also trying to think about all the positives.. Yes I miss him, BUT things in my life are going right. Yes I would love to share all the joys going on in my life with him, But I know he wouldn't want me to be mopping around crying all the time.
I also know it's not healthy to ignore the pain. So I'm just trying to find the happy medium... Easier said than done. But I think I'm doing okay. I guess that is all I can ask for at the moment.
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