The "joys" of parenting...

I love my kids more then anything in the world! But sometimes I just wish I could get a break sometimes!!
Beth is almost 6 & Ky Ky just turned 3.. So I have my hands full! It doesn't help that I work nights & don't get enough sleep at all!
I just want to escape for a bit! Does this make me a bad parent? I don't think so. I have been a mom since I was 18.. well technically 19 *pregnant @ 18, had her a few months after I was 19* So I've never really had the "normal" teenage life. Well I never really had a normal life. I had to grow up fast. So I never thought anything of it that I was forced to be a mom at a young age. It's a lot harder than you would think..
It wasn't til after my adopted dad died that I really started being a "selfish", but I realized that I deserve some "me" time. Where I am not a mom/wife for a few hours! I am just 25 year old Tanya!
And lately I feel like I don't get that really.
I don't resent my kids at all, & they are the reason for me waking up everyday! But I am in just in a need of a night to myself!
They're the joys of my life & crack me up all the time. But it is days like this, when they don't listen very well, that I just want a moment!
A moment that I am not yelling " don't eat that!", "get your hand out of your butt" ,"What did you put in your nose", & "Stop hitting each other" Sentences you never really thought you would have to use.. Just wait. When your a parent some of the things you have to say. Would totally help if Ky Ky would potty train. I know he JUST turned 3, But lord have mercy I am DONE with the whole diaper thing! Driving me nutty!!
But it's the sweet moments that keep you from selling them on the black market!
When Ky Ky just wants to snuggle, or Beth feels the need to do my hair.. never a pretty out come, but still cute! Or when they accomplish something on their own, and they're so proud of themselves.
That's what keeps them around :P Helps that they're really cute.
I just get tiered of doing everything around the house. Working til 2am, getting up @ 6 to take Beth to the bus stop for school, having to clean the house, help her with her homework, & all that kind of stuff. Would be great if the hubby helped more.. But that is a totally different ranting blog!